I am 15 and have no friends besides one that lives far away and one that I don't even know if we are friends. Through they will leave just like everyone else for no reason. My mom tells me that I am selfish and I made her and everyone else miserable. She yells at me a lot especially when I show any emotion. My dad yells at me to for being over emotion. I been depressed for over a year and I cut myself daily for about two months now. I have thought of suicide many times. I even have held a bottle of pills and cried because I wanted to do it but I couldn't. It drives me crazy that I can't be the one to kill me. I also had stood in the middle of the street and hope every night before I go to bed that I won't wake up. I skip meals often like most days for the past 2 weeks I hadn't ate breakfast or lunch. I really don't know what I did for a lot of people to hate me or not talk to me. I think if I was skinny my mom would hate me less.
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