I was born and removed from my mother (She was Black and I was White, black women did not know how to raise mixed blood babys in the 50's) discarded twice before I was 1 month old and then adopted. Before I was 7 the lesson that parents lie, as do police and that I was stupid, useless and not worth spending any time on was well ingrained. The incidents that taught me that still haunt me some 50years latter. My heart leaks constantly as the video runs through my mind. I look back and see No happy memories in my early years and as memories are what make us who we are I am a very unhappy adult. A parasitic microbial disease that is caught from the common cat was discovered in my system when I was 7. It has the power to change ones mood and destroy eye sight. My spine has deteriorated as arthritis and osteoporosis set in, the outcome is walking aids and constant pain. The 350>500mgs of Morphine I consumed daily only sedated me, so that I didn't give a dam about the pain. My hip want's to seize every time I move position and the nerve sends electric jolts down my leg of such power and intensity that I almost scream out loud. I do when it wakens me from my sleep, my neighbours are not happy. The constant 24/7 black dog of depression barks at my heals never-endingly. I am so so so tired. Now 55, can't work, can’t walk without mechanical aids, can't go out during the daylight as lights hurt my eyes, reading makes my eyes ake and now the money has run out and medication is beyond reach. I live on my bathroom floor as it is well drained; my mattress is double coated rubber and the hose is within easy reach. Pain is now my lover and permanent partner. Laughs, Oh I so much want a divorce. I could call for help, but it just aint me. My ancestors in the not too distant past when it was their time they wandered off from the people so that they might die. I can’t wander but I can shut myself off from those around me. I pray that a worn out older soul is allowed the dignity to go back to dust. It is time to hit the button. So shoot me someone, hell if I was a dog I would of been put down years ago. Shoot Me Please.
Im 22 just got out of a 3 1/2 year abusive relationship. Met a nice guy....tells me he wants me to fall for him....couple month go by things are going perfectly. Ask him out his reply "Sorry your great an all but im not ready for a relationship"....SHMPLS!!!
im 14. my life used to be good, a great family who loves me, great friends, popularity in school and,.... then i started to like my best friend, he liked bad girls so i started acting bad, found new older friends, started to smoke weed, got fake boyfriends, dressup like a whore and... then he started to act good and once he told me that it was the old me that he loved the old nicer me, so i wanna change now but i cant cuz i turned into a bitch... SHOOT ME PLEASE (P.S im still a virgin and i still like him)
it takes a lot for me to like a boy, i finally started to like one, the problem is that he used to be my best friend when i was 4 and the worst part is that after his little sister grew up i became her best friend so we started not to talk, now i'm 14 i recently started to like him, i believe he hates me all though he's nice his sister (A.K.A BFF) says he's crazy for me and i should make a move, his besties like me but he doesn't they say he hates me also, i think i love him cause it's been about a year that i like him and i spend 99% of my life thinkin' bout him but i'm sure he doesn't spend even a sec, and even if he does he's too shy and my mom says i'm too young to have a boyfriend:(Shoot me Please._.
selena gomez stole my BF:D Shoot Me Please:p
I'm only 12 years old, but I have emotional and family issues that are taking a toll on me. It all starts out when I was 3, and living in Chicago. To make this long story short; I was at a bakery with my mom, brother, and the store owners, a robber came in and held up the store, tied up my mom and the store owners in the basement, threatining to kill us all, then leaving me and broher upstairs with him... Considering I don't really remember this, and it's not completely relavent to the rest of my story; how did this affect me? I developed mild PTSD... As well as having that, I currently have depression, I self harm, I have anxiety, and am showing signs of anorexia. Along with that, even though I do love my mom, she is a complete bitch to me! She told me she I thought I was going to kill myself, she's called me bitch before, shithead, never believes me about anything, and she always brings me down someway or another... And from people at school that hurts, I know it does, but from your own mom it hurts so much more. She's really a large reason of why I cut, and have had sucidal thoughts. I keep all that botteled up in me though, because I feel like there is no one there for me to tell it to. In all honesty, I'm scared for my future. I'm only 12, but I have depression, am very awkward, have an anxiey disorder, PTSD, starting to have a eating disorder... I feel like a completely screwed worthless piece of shit and I don't know what to do. Shoot me please.
My girlfriend always get angry with me. She scolds me every now and then. I am in a serious trouble. She has some mental problem. I am the sufferer. I cant continue anymore. But I love her. Why I am so much unlucky? SHOOT ME PLEASE.
Sixteen. Almost seventeen. Mum divorced three times and married four times. (her current marriage is slowly decaying) Still don't know who my dad is. Want to get out of this shit town but my 'family' will no longer take me in. My older sister who was my fucking mentor moved out the Monday before Thanksgiving so I came home and her room was empty, like she had never lived here. I work at fucking Pizza Hut and they scam me every paycheck and I'm constantly sexually harassed but I'm too fucking tired to do anything. My ex boyfriend (we lost our virginities together) turned into a nympho and cheated on me with a lot of different girls by using MYYEARBOOK. My other ex got leukemia and somehow managed to cheat on me on his death bed. (He recovered, and now he's a local celebrity and AAAALLLLLLLL the girls want some) I am now a speed addict, spend most of my paycheck money on speed and weed. Have one night stands. Ended up fucking the 19 year old neighborhood felon and getting pregnant. Got an abortion. Can't get over my two main exs (previously mentioned) AND I'M STILL STUCK IN THIS PODUNK TOWN. FMLSHMPLS!!!
I have a computer connected to my tv and got it before they sold those pc ones and by bff wants one too Shoot yourself
Everyday i suffer with bullying, depression, stress. all i get is hate from people i dont even know. my family hates me and all i wanna do is die. my family tells me im not good enough, and that im worthless. SMPLS
I'm not sure if my crush likes me or loves me back. He shows signs that he likes me, like that time when i was crying, he looked at me.But yesterday, when my teacher forced me to borrow a pen from my crush (becaus ei dont have one) all my classmates screamed "how sweet!" and my crush shouted "She's all yours guys.ALL YOURS." And also, i feel like a total nerd at school, because guys call me "ugly girl" but almost all of my teachers call me "pretty" they even want me to be the candidate for our school beauty pageant. THIS IS SUCH A CONFUSING LIFE. SHMPLS. :'(
I'm 16 fat, ugly, in love with my friend but am to scaired to tell him, have depression and suicidally thoughts, my dad left my mum cos he hates me, my mum is always telling me how useless I am and how I'm the worst mistake of her life, I'm failing school and cant get anything right. Just shoot me now.
...Had sex with two (a girl and guy)... Condom broke. Didnt take the pill... Pregant test said yes... Fuck it?... SHMPLS....
My best friend posted about her screwed up life on here and so many people said shoot that she shot her self yesterday. I miss her so much so please.. Shoot me so I can see her again! PLEASE!!
I'm Bi-Polar. I have Depression. I have been Physically, Verbally, Sexually, Mentally, and Emotionally abused by my "Family" since I was 7.. (I am only 14) I hardly know my father. The man who was like a father to me comitted suicide yesterday. All my neigbors know what happens at my house but refuse to do anything about it. Three people that I cared about (My Grandmother, Grandfather, and my other Grandfather) all died in the last three months) I get harrassed by all the guys at school. They pull me into bathrooms and ask me if I want to do it. My neibor pulls out a gun when ever she sees me walking by. Shoot me please. Anybody who knows (Guidance counclers at school.. Teachers..) give up on me..
I'm almost 16 and i'm still in love with my ex, we broke up about 8 months ago.. i still think of him, cry over him, dream about; I miss him so fucking much, but it get worse... he hates me he is ALWAYS tweeting about he is SOO over me and that he loove to being single, jerks stuff. I tried so many times to moved on to get over him but nothing works I feel so depress and alone; I feel that even my family don't like... mu self-esteem is underground SHMPLS.
I had sex with my GF and the condom broke. She wasn't taking the pill. I am scared she will be preggo. SHMPLS.
I'm going into high school and I've had my heart broken 15 times already.....Shoot me please
My wife is making life hell for me
Ok, so I'm in love with a guy who doesn't love me back. We broke up last December, we would hook up every now and then until he had to move to Alabama a month or two ago. He doesn't talk to me anymore and I still cry over him. Even though I now have a new boyfriend, who lives in Illinois(4 hours away), whom I love and fear that he'll end up like another of my exes. I also love my best friend and "sister" more than a friend. I also have almost no social life. SHOOT ME PLEASE.